One Month to Live.

If I only had one month to live. I would go crazy trying to think of what I'm going to do during this one month.But after I got all my planning out the first thing I would do is spend as much time with my mom as possible.My mom loves it when it's just me and her spending time together, and I would give anything to make her happy.We would probably go to Columbus well maybe not considering that I only get to live for a month.So we would probably go to London because I've been begging her to take me there and I know my mom would do it for me.
The second thing I would do is go visit my (real) dad in Las Vegas.This man has been begging me to come down there to see him. I think I would though just to make him happy and to leave on good terms.The third thing I would do is spend as much time with my friends because they play a very important part in my life.I would take them all to the beach and we would just have fun like there is no tomorrow!The forth thing I would do is get on good terms with God. I mean who wouldn't considering they are about to die and your not sure how your "walk" is with God.So I would probably so that.
Another thing I would do is go to the people that I know I know I have done wrong.I would apologize for all my mistakes and for making there life hell or things like that.I would just like to be on good terms with everybody.So when people look back at me they will say "that girl was so funny,sweet,smart,beautiful,and very crazy" instead of me and hateful things.
I know some people say they would like to go sky diving or visit space or something like that, but not me I really do not care for things like that. It really wouldn't matter to me where I was just as long as I'm with my family and friends.And this my friends is what I would do if I only had on month to live.

joy

Things that bring me joy are seeing other people in joy.


The reason for this is because when I see people happpy it make me happy and when I see people bringing joy to other people.


Well it just modivates me to want to the same.


Another thing at that brings me joy is my mom.


She is always there me when i need her even though we dont get along all the time i respect her and she makes me happy.


I love her with all my heart,depite what i say.


Music.Music brings me joy i love to sit at home and listen to music and try and figure what the song is talking about and i also love to right down the lyrics.


I also love having fun, i mean who doesnt.


I also bring joy to people too.

It may not seem like it because i'm so blunt about everything and people think that i mean when really im not.


I love bring joy to people and make them happy like for example whenever somebody is down about something i try and do everything i can do to make them happy.

i also bring joy to people by well i dont know i just know i do.


I enjoy going shopping it makes me happy when i get new clothes and things.


I also enjoy buying people clothes and things too.


I mean just to see there face when the open it makes my day or night and when i give it too them.

I enjoy going to parties,because i love to dance and have a good time.

Three Things I Value

The first thing I value is my friends.
The reason for this is because I love all
my friends and they are my number one priority
because they are my life I only have a few of
real friends and they are Dylan,Leah,Grasi,and
a few more that i don't feel like naming.
Dylan is my number one bestfriend in the
whole world.I love him with all my heart.
I always go to him with my problems and he
gives me the right advice.He looks after me
and tell me what i'm doing is wrong whenever
i do something wrong,and thats why i value him
so much!
Leah,well she is just crazy and she can always
make me happy when i'm sad.
Grasi she always gives really good advice she
helps me with my "guy" problems.
I know I can go to them anytime I need them and I
know that they Will always be there for me.I
can tell them anything,I love to hang out with them.
They make me happy.
The second thing I value is my Ipod touch.
It is my life I have everything I need on there.
I have my music,Internet,contacts,clock,videos,etc.
If I ever lost it I would probably go crazy.If i
ever left it somewhere when i really needed it
I would probably freak.Because I love music
and i listen to it 24/7,365 days.
The third thing that I value is my makeup.
If I didn't have makeup I would freak.
Because it makes me feel and look beautiful,
and everybody likes to feel and look beautiful.
Yeah sometimes it's a pain and you just don't feel like
putting it on because all your going to do is stay
in the house and not go anywhere.But when you do go
somewhere you like to look nice exspecaily when
your going to meet that special guy you like.
That's when the make up is your friend.It's just a girl
thing.

ps. I have nothing else to say about the three things that I
value.They make me so happy.

A poem by-Nikki Giovanni

currently I was searching the web for a poem by Nikki Giovanni.
I found one and this is it.


Balances

in life
one is always
balancing

like we juggle our mothers
against our fathers

or one teacher
against another
(only to balance our grade average)

3 grains of salt
to one ounce truth

our sweet black essence
or the funky honkies down the street

and lately i've begun wondering
if you're trying to tell me something

we used to talk all night
and do things alone together

and i've begun
and lately i've begun wondering
if you're trying to tell me something
(as a reaction to a feeling)
to balance
the pleasure of loneliness
against the pain
of loving you

Nikki Giovanni

Now by redaing this I have come to relize that we do blance things just like Nikki is saying in this poem.The main reason why I fell in love with this poem is because I relate to it.In the first stanza she says "in life
one is always
balancing" and she is completely right,because somebody is always blancing something.In the next stanza she says "like we juggle our mothers
against our fathers" and she is right again and what she is saying is that we compare our mothers to uo father. Weathering its wich one you like better or which one buys you the most stuff.In my case I like my mom more than my dad because she has been in my life longer then my dad has and plus i live with her.
Anyways in the fourth stanza she says "or one teacher
against another
(only to balance our grade average)" and this is true we judge teachers on who is the nicest and how good our grade average is.Instead of looking at the fact how good th teacher is even though she may be tough (Mrs.Chapman) and even though you don't have the best grade in one class then you do the other she still can be as good as all the other teachers she might even care more thats why she is so tough on you she wants you to push yourself.Ok next stanza she sates "3 grains of salt
to one ounce truth" well i'm not very sure what she is trying to say here but i'm sure whatever she is saying is real.In the 5th stanza she says "our sweet black essence
or the funky honkies down the street"and this true (even though she is refering to white people as honkies,but thats ok)we do compare ourself to each others race.
Now in the next stanza she says "and lately i've begun wondering
if you're trying to tell me something" maybe in this she is saying that we shouldn't focus on the negative things in life and focus and the postive things and even though it is not as good as the other thing we should still try in the see the positives in life/things.
In the seventh stanza she says "we used to talk all night
and do things alone together" I think she is talking about a love one that has broke up with her or lead her on to something thats not going to happen.
Fanily in the last stanza she says "and i've begun
and lately i've begun wondering
if you're trying to tell me something
(as a reaction to a feeling)
to balance
the pleasure of loneliness
against the pain
of loving you
" ok this is deep in this she is stating that somebody sent her a sign something like maybe to look on the bright side your world is not over.